Trembling Shadows
A romantic, psychological thriller
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
It had taken Malathi a little earthwards. But the possibility of her studying medicine was still making her elated. She herself prepared for a little worst. But she could not guess what it would be. “You are my mother. You want my good always. You are working very hard with your sickened body all the time mostly for my welfare. Whatever you may say would not make me angry. Just spit that out.” Cupping her mother’s face in her hands Malathi said.
“You have to sleep with a man” in one stretch her mother said averting her eyes from her daughter’s face. “If you do so he will provide the means for your studying medicine.”
“What!’ Malathi yelled with a small voice taking off her hands from her mother’s face. “I cannot understand. I what…” with bewilderment she asked again.
“You have heard me right darling. You have to share the bed with a sixty years old man to get the means for studying medicine. This is one of the means to the poor people like us to get enough money to fulfill our high level ambitions. Sorry if I hurt you deeply.” Tears were flowing down on the cheeks of her mother.
It had taken some time to Malathi to get the matter digested. Strangely she did not get anger with her mother. There was nothing to get angry. She asked her mother to find a way to study medicine. It was the only way she could find to get her daughter’s high level wish to be fulfilled.
“There is nothing to get angry with you, mom.” In a slow but firm tone Malathi said. “Who is that man?” It did not take much time to her to prepare mentally.
Malathi’s mother provided the details to her daughter. That person was not unknown to her. He was the richest person in that village.
“How he is going to give us the financial aid for my medicine?” by that time she digested the matter fully and started calculating. After all she got some means to fulfill her wish.
“He would provide some means in before. The remaining will be given whenever it needed. He would see that there would no problem to your medicine or to our lives. But he sees it so only as long as you are with him. He is eying you for a long time. You know that he can do as he promised” Malathi’s mother said. Tears were still flowing down on Malathi’s mother’s cheeks and she was not at all trying to wipe them or stop them. “There may be no other mother on the earth to suggest this type of a thing to her daughter” her voice chocked while saying this.
“No, mom”, wiping her tears with her hand Malathi said. “You are an example of true mother. What good we get by keeping our bodies intact? It is sure a sin to spoil ourselves in this way. But there are other people around who are committing more big sins than these and living happily. I have no objection to that. But it is a continuing one. I have to stick with him for more than six or so years.” It really appalled Malathi. However strong her desire to study medicine, the idea that she had to share her body with that man for such long time was making her creepy.
“Yes dear. You must think about this fully.” Her mother said again. “It is just a proposal. There is no compulsion.”
Malathi pondered over that for some more time. Her desire to study medicine won over everything else. “There is no more thinking mom. But we must get that in full for what I am doing this”
“I shall look into that” there was relief and pain in her mother’s face at the same time. “And we are not going to live in this village any more. We shall move to the town where you are going to study your medicine.” breathing deeply Malathi’s mother said.
“Okay mom,” Malathi kissed her mother on her left cheek and said. “Thank you very much that you have found a way to fulfill my wish”
Later on the mother and daughter moved into the town in which Malathi’s medical college was. That person arranged a house for them both. He was a widower and with lots of money. His only son was settled in a foreign country and for the present he was all alone. He had no problem to stay anywhere. As expected Malathi had to satisfy his desire continuously to get the money from him to study her medicine and go on with their survival. It did go like that until the final year of her medicine. Then that person died with a heart attack. In the same year her mother as well died.
All her money was used up by then and she did not know how to complete the remaining course. Then Rajesh helped her to go through her studies. A very nice boy Rajesh she still thought of him. She was quite careful and none of her classmates knew about her secret life. All they knew was that Malathi was living with her step father and mother. It was known only to Rajesh.
“How long you stay in the upstairs room so? Please come downstairs” she came out of her thoughts abruptly as Tanuja entered into the room and said that.
Malathi sat up on the bed and looked at Tanuja. Tanuja appeared as glamorous as to her at the first time she had seen her. Only few women could keep themselves so at forty six years or so of age too. It was quite surprising to Malathi that Tanuja was appearing that much beautiful even she was not taking much care towards her makeup.
Malathi considered herself. She was fifty three years aged now. Even she was not as much glamorous as Tanuja, she knew she had got a perfect body and her youth parts now were as they were at her thirty years of age. Every time on the bed Vinod would say to her that it was like first time to him. If she was not placed beside Tanuja she was as well beautiful. She smiled in herself.
“What a big room and how neat it is!” Tanuja exclaimed. “How our grandma is managing it in this way?”
“Grandma is really having mysterious powers” Malathi said. “Alright, come we both shall go down now” she said again starting herself towards downstairs.
***
The climate was cleared a little. But it was still shady and cool and the sky was lour with black clouds. There was no rain then. He had seen that his wife was going into upstairs room. He felt very good while he was looking at his wife. Nearly twenty five years or so had passed after he had married Tanuja. But there was not much change either in her physique or in her mentality. She was like a small child. She would talk openly whatever she felt. She did not like hurting anyone especially Rajesh
Even after twenty five years or so too the memories of his marriage life with her were fresh. Why he had chosen to marry her? Was her glamour was the only reason that he married her? Most of the people thought like that, especially Malathi. It was right to some extent but he had seen something more in her than the glamour which made him decide to marry her particularly.
That was the innocence and transparency in her. Whatever she talked then she talked from her heart. She did not hide anything at all. He understood there was nothing left untold in her. He thought first that he might be mistaken and that there were matters that she did not tell him, concealed from him. But so far until now it had proved that there were no matters that she concealed from him. In fact, there were some matters that he did not tell her. She herself knew that he did not tell her some matters of his life. But she never felt about that.
There was an age gape of more than ten years between them both. He did not care about the gap but he feared that she might think about that. After their marriage, on the first night he asked her. “There is twelve years gap between you and me. I am thirty years old and you are just eighteen years. Is this bothering you?”
“Why it bothers me? What all matters to me is whether the man who married me is a nice guy or not. Luckily you are a very nice guy. That is enough to me.” Without looking at him she said.
On that day at that time she was like any other woman. Her cheeks were blushed with shame. In that traditional wear her beauty had become double. It was becoming difficult to him to keep her away from him. Until that moment he did not even touch her.
He slowly put his hand around her shoulders and dragged her near to him. While doing so his hand fell on her left breast which was quite smooth and big under it. When he made her opposite to him and looked into her face her eyelids were lowered might be with shame. Her mouth was opened and he could see the shivering of her lower lip. He placed his lips gently and smoothly covering her both lips. He could feel the hot breath of her on his face. Then he pressed his mouth a little roughly on her lips savoring the smooth rubbery touch of them. He intruded his tongue into her mouth and inside the mouth her tongue felt lukewarm. Then he slowly laid her completely flat on the bed and made himself comfortably on the top of her.
“So you have married me whole heartedly” withdrew himself from her mouth he whispered in her ear.
She pushed him a little away and looked into his eyes. “Why did you get such a doubt?” She frowned and it seemed that she had got a little anger too.
“Your choice of picking me made by force” as the matter came to that much he did not hesitate. “If you did not love someone and circumstances turned out so, there is no necessity to you to agree with my proposal.”
“I would have certainly agreed to marry you even I had not fall myself in such a position” she said troublingly as his weight became more on the top of her. “Any girl would feel happy to love and marry someone like you. I want to be frank with you. You are handsome and even I have not got such a ghastly past, I would have gladly agreed to marry you”
He felt quite happy and he kissed all over her face. Without removing her hands around his neck she kissed him back on his face. She stared at him a little embarrassingly while he was gently removing one after one the clothes from her body but at no point she objected him from doing so. When the last garment as well removed from her body she dragged him up and hugged him so strongly and kissed even more forcibly on his lips only not to allow him to see her public parts.
Her body was just like glass. There was only invisible little fur on it. Her breasts at an angle appeared a little big on her delicate body. While her naked body was undulating under his weight she said “Now your turn”
“What?’ he asked as he could not understand what she was talking.
“Get yourself undressed” she whispered in his ear.
“I never before made myself naked completely at any point of time” he said with a smile.
“I too. But I did not object when you have made me completely naked.” Throwing him away she said.
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