Rain Flower
Kotra Siva Rama Krishna
“Alright. Don’t worry about it too much. Now you are free and happy.” It was not unusual now a day that couple marry willingly and would become hostile from the next day itself. There might be reasons that Swapna married him willingly but became hostile to him in little time which Swaroop could not know.
“I thought she came into contact with an old boyfriend after our marriage who missed for a considerable period of time from her life. Thinking he never might come into her life again she married me. But once she came to him, she branded me like that ……... but it is just a wild guess …….…. really I failed to do it to her.”
“Anyhow why did you get that her lover idea?” she knitted her brows together.
“From her phone conversation I suspected it like this. It may not be true.”
“It is absolutely true. It is the reason” she paused for a moment and said again. “Don’t think about her much. Not only from your life, must she be evicted from your mind also.”
“I am not thinking about her much and her memories are not bothering me either.” He breathed deeply. “But the feeling I am impotent scorching my psyche. Why it happened like this to me?”
“I am saying again that you are not impotent. There is no impotency like thing. It is just your feeling.” She said.
He nodded his head in negation. “It is not like that. I tried many times. I must say she gave me the chance. But I could not.”
Liza did not know what to say.
“Sometimes I want to commit suicide. I just cannot bear the thought that I am impotent.”
She startled at once on hearing that. Now there was suicide tendency! “My God! You need a psychiatrist’s help immediately.” She said.
He did not say anything but closed his eyes.
“Why my sister Rose herself is a famous psychiatrist. I take an appointment with her. You go and immediately see her.”
He did not say anything to that either.
“Please. You said you are my friend. If you are really feeling that I am your friend go and see my sister. She sure would be helpful to you.” There was desperate pleading in her voice now.
“Sorry. No. I am not going to see anyone else.” His voice was firm. “I am feeling strangely close with you. So I have come to see you.”
Immediately she took a decision. There was no other way at all. “Then come to see me tomorrow also. At night. After nine. Don’t forget. If you are really feeling that I am your friend you must come on tomorrow at nine in the night.”
“Sis, you are once again fallen in deep thinking. About what you are thinking like this?”
Liza startled and came into this world. She was really irritated for the disturbance but forced a smile on to her lips while looking at her sister Rose.
***
Jasmine had fallen in thought. Now into her thought process Tippu entered. Tippu was a friend not only to her brother but to her also in their childhood. They both were so intimate in those days. Even she was not as much friendly as they were in their childhood, she has had a good feeling on him always and has a relationship also until John entered into her life. She never had thought that Tippu would do it like that. Why he guided her brother to see whatever it might be and turned him mad like that?
As John said his intention might not be made Williams mad like that. Whatever his intention might be it caused great damage to her brother. When his brother could become normal? She would simply kill that bastard Tippu if he appeared before her then.
But he used to be innocent. He used to be good. They played together. All different games. Whenever she remembered the games they played together she still felt shy and embarrassed. In fact he was a good friend not only to her brother Williams but to her also. What the real purpose of him in making his brother to see that bloody thing she could not understand however much she thought about it.
“What you are thinking so deep?” she heard the voice of her brother, came into the present and turned her head to look at him.
“Nothing.” She smiled. “It is a surprise that you came into my room. Please sit.” Showing the bed there she said.
He came and slumped himself in it.
“Did you remember anything about me that you came here like this?” she asked him hopefully
He nodded his head in negation. “No. I did not remember anything. But I am always feeling a strange closeness with you.” He smiled.
She nodded her head. “Alright. Don’t you remember anything about mother atleast?”
There came a troubling expression on his face. “I am trying but I cannot remember anything at all.”
“Its alright. Don’t force yourself to remember anything.” Remembering herself what Rose often would say about Williams, Jasmine said hastily. “Anything you do want to talk with me now?”
“You are my sister. Should not I come into your room unless I want to talk something with you?” he questioned her.
“Not at all, not at all. You are always welcome into my room and I am feeling very happy that you have come like this.” She got off from the chair, slumped beside him on the bed, placed her right hand on his right shoulder and said.
He nodded his head and said. “What is this John matter? Are you in love with him?”
On hearing that she removed her hand from his shoulder and stood up.
“Of course, yes. Don’t you like John much?”
“I did not say so.” Williams too stood up. “John is appearing to me as a gentleman. I think you can take good decisions regarding your life. Did I know John before I became forgettable like this?”
“Yes. You know him and you liked him also. You both are not very close friends. But you liked him.” She supplied the information.
“I think he is doing some engineering business. How it is going now?” Williams went to a nearby chair and slumped himself in it.
“It is fine. He has four employees in it. He worked for our organization also at one time in the past.”
“How do you come to know about him?”
“Because of you.” She smiled again. “You appointed him to do some work in our organization and I came to know about him then. He is a nice guy and so it is like this.’ she was indeed feeling happy that Williams was showing interest in John like this.
“Mother told me that she also liked John a lot. Congratulations! I shall see that you both marry very soon.” He said.
“Thank you very much brother.” She put her both hands around his shoulders and kissed on his cheek.
***
Liza felt relieved seeing Swaroop at her house even half an hour before the appointed time. She had expected that he would come but felt anxious thinking whether he might not come. The suicidal tendency was so clear in him and there would be no surprise if he committed suicide at any moment.
“Why did you have asked me to come? I have no interest on anything whatsoever now.” His voice was weak but his coming early like that was proving to her he has interest.
“Sit first. There are matters we need to talk now.” She said earnestly.
He has come inside of her room but still not volunteered to sit. “There are matters that you wanted to talk with me now? It is surprising to me.”
“Of course there are. First sit.” It was a sort of command and he immediately obeyed.
“I don’t know why but I have felt a sort of closeness with you when I have seen you the first time itself.”
“My feeling also is the same.” He said without delay.
“I am nearly fourteen years older to you. How do you feel about it?” she asked him
“I am fourteen years younger to you. How you are feeling closeness with me then?”
She did not know what to say.
“There is never age like thing. Once we are over our minority, we are all equals. We should not see the difference between ages once we are majors.” He said.
“Excellent! I really like your reasoning so.” She really liked what he has said. “You are this much clever, why you are depressing that much over such a simple issue?”
“Being an impotent is not a small issue.” There was depression again in his voice.
“You are not an impotent; I can say that for sure.” She said again.
“How can you say it that much surely?” he knitted his eyebrows.
“I think I can prove that to you.” She said. But she felt fear then. What if this boy really suffering from some physical problem which caused impotency? But she adjusted herself thinking that there was no wrong playing like this to avert him from suicidal tendency.
“What problem you are really facing while making sexual intercourse with your partner?” she asked him straightly. She knew there would not be much use in jargon.
“Er….... I cannot tell you about that.” His cheeks were blushed.
“Come on we both are friends. We can talk anything freely. Tell me what problem you are facing with your bed partner?”
“Better you use past tense. There is no bed partner to me now.” He smiled.
“First tell me what is the problem?” she irritated.
Then he explained it to her while she was listening to him with close attention while clipping her lower lip between her teeth frames. When she confirmed herself that he finished, she released the lip slowly and asked him. “Ever you have seen a completely naked woman?”
He thought for a moment and then said. “No, never.”
“Ever you want to see a fully grown woman completely naked?”
“Yes many a time.” There was confusion in his face. She understood that he could not understand why she was asking these questions.
“I think your ex-wife never have given you a chance to see her completely naked.”
He hissed out heavily. “That’s right.” He paused for a second before saying again. “She gave me the chance to do it to her but never let me see her fully nude.”
“Now you are going to see a fully naked woman.” Her voice was casual and there was no embarrassment in her.
His eyes became wide and there was surprise in them. Despite his twenty four or so of years of age he was appearing like a child to her. She knew if he had been left like that he sure would commit suicide and she never could forgive herself. She was not well versed in sex matters but knew some extent about them. She vaguely remembered that she read somewhere that there is no impotency in male and she just believed it.
She started taking off the clothes from her body one after one. He remained staring at her with a gaped mouth. When she unhooked her brassiere and took it off from her body, he stood up from the chair.
“Beautiful!” his voice was shivering and she knew that he was looking at her big breasts which stood erected on her chest.
With no hesitation she unknotted her petty coat and it helplessly dropped at her feet and she walked over it. Now there was nothing on her body and she was stark naked.
“Now it is your turn.” Looking at him with a smile on her lips she said.
He nodded his head slowly and started undressing himself. He removed his shirt and banian and unhooked his belt and took of his pant also from his body without much hesitation. Now there was left only a drawer on his body.
“That too. You must.” Looking straight at his drawer she said.
For a moment he felt embarrassed but he understood that he could not escape once she herself standing completely nude before him so. With shivering fingers he took his drawer first upto his knees, then bent himself and lowered it upto his feet and then took it completely away from his body and threw it somewhere.
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