What if my nightmare actually came true?
That day, I felt like no one. The past few nights had been normal if I wanted to pretend, but every night, someone kept haunting me. It was none other than you!
You’ve ruined my days and nights like never before. But why now? Why are you appearing in each of my dreams? Can I call it half-closure? Can I say that you still miss me, or is it the other way around? I’ve moved on for a decade. Should I enter a new relationship? Or should I focus on my career? I was always smart, confident, and not so bad-looking either. The haunting was a decade ago, but then I moved on, and life was going well. So why am I stressing out now?
I slowly walked out of your life. I know you might have tried once and said, "Don't go, we'll figure it out," but you never did.
I got my answers from your silence, and I would have understood the heavy-hearted "NO." I kept asking myself why. Why is it me?
I continued to blame myself, that broken heart phase made me a different person. From a highly motivated,enthusiastic and confident girl changed to a cry baby who just waited for you day and night. I have ruined my daily routine and spend many nights and day just thinking about you, I tried therapy as well, and my friends and family were worried about me.
As always I was sleeping on my bed and watching the sunset from my window. I saw a bird trying to fly before it turned dark. It was injured and still tried many attempts, even though this bird was not able to fly ,injured and still tried so hard to get out of that place before dark. It made me think that I am a human, I have everything and why can't I try once! Twice or thrice or maybe a hundred times till I get back to the light? That realization ,that moment was precious.
Now you're haunting me, giving me hope each night, but every morning the alarm rings, and I realize you were never there, and I was always just hoping. But not anymore!
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