After seeing the text from my cheating boyfriend I ran like nobody's business and went to see him, he fooled me with his words as always, this other morning I was at his house and decided to take his phone. I logged in to his Facebook account without him noticing, I went through the chats and I saw texts of different girls popping "how could you do this to me" I said trying to wake him up, he looked at me and continued to sleep. I was deeply hurt by what I saw on the chats and I decided to take my clothes and go home, as I was approaching the door he stopped me and apologized, the stupid me accepted the apology I went home tears were falling from eyes, "I'm ready to move on with my life" I said to my self, I lost confidence after the guy cheated on me I had insecurities. I sent him a text dumpling him. He asked to see me later and I agreed, he cried telling me how much I he loves he, there we go again I falled for his tricks again and again. I was also afraid of breaking up with him because I love him and he's my soulmate, am I his soulmate? No the guy was just using me to satisfy himself. We moved on, he then decided to be loyal to me his behavior changed he was the guy I wanted All along.He spend his last cent on me try by all means to see and make Me happy, little did I know that I was losing feelings for him this means that I was healing while I was still in relationship with him, I made excuses when he wants to have sex with me. "whats wrong with you? I'm no longer satisfying you huh?" he said, "I'm tired" I responded to him. I did not even want him to touch me anymore, I hated him for what he did to me even though his behavior changed I ignored that because fooled me and played with my feelings before he was loyal, he questioned me so much about my behavior, he thought I was cheating on him just like he cheated on me. I did not cheat on him even once and the reason I lost feelings for him was because I saw my worth and decided to think about my health, if he cheated on me and said I made him sick he will definitely do it again and again. I realized how much I was desperate for love and how much I was desperate for someone else to love me, that's when I told myself that I need to love my self first before I can be able to love someone else, the reason I stayed in this toxic relationship was because I did not love my self and I was so desperate to be loved by this guy, he did hurt my feelings but also he opened my eyes, I will never ever settle for less.
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