Chapter ::16
Why are you asking this question? You liked me kissing you that day, right! I did not lose my eye contact. Logan looks somewhere else and says,’ I don’t know, I need to ask myself that I like you or not’. I turn his face towards me and say that I really like you, Logan. But the problem is same I also have to ask myself that what I actually want? You are saying all this because you are drunk and as your hang over will be over, it will go away. Simon is calling us for dinner and he walks away and I remain quiet and join them for food.
Next morning, I ask Logan to come for shopping with me. But he refuses and says he has art work to do for which he wants to be alone. I feel that maybe he is ignoring me. I reach shopping mall and buy gifts for everyone a beautiful dress for Sarah. Sarah will look stunning in this dress. I shop for my mom, dad, Weston, Carol and Elena. After all the shopping, when I walk out from the shopping mall a thought came to my mind that I must buy something for Logan but if he refuses to take it, no matter what and I enter a gift shop and see many things but I wanted to buy something exclusive and suddenly my eyes fix on the statue of a kid holding a hand of lady and in other hand he holds paint brush. I immediately buy it and ask the owner to wrap it beautifully.
In the evening, I find Logan in kitchen, Simon plays piano and like practising something. I go to the kitchen and ask him are you preparing farewell party for me? Yes, it was good to have you here. I enjoy a lot with you says Logan holding a glass of water. I also feel the same for you Logan, in fact the truth is that you are the only reason of my coming early to Georgia. I want to know you. I speak the truth. I think you understand me well. Logan busy making the dish. I still don’t know how you feel about me and continue the conversation. This topic must be closed because you have forgotten that you have a girlfriend and you are just attracted towards me. that’s it! he says. You are going back and you have made your choice Evan. When life becomes a puzzle then one must solve it with patience. Logan says looking straight into my eyes while setting the dinner table. I help him to lay the dinner and dishes looks tasty. Rice, chicken, salad, fries, beef. potato, pork and an apple Pie in dessert. Today, he chooses only American dishes for dinner. I really like his taste.
Come-on Simon calls Logan dinner is ready and we are waiting for you. So, Evan how was your shopping? We are really sorry that you had to go alone Simon says. No, don’t be sorry! I understand you both were in engaged in your work. I say eating beef. Next time you come with your girlfriend Elena. Simon says smilingly. I notice Logan busy eating. Who knows what future holds? I reply. I am a business man so I believe in making plans. I already planned my life; our house will be ready in months and I will settle legally with Logan. He smiles and looks at Logan. Logan understands his plan but says nothing. I think we must flow with time and see what comes our way. This apple pie is amazing. I speak. You can say like that but still life needs planning like when will you marry your girl? Simon fills his mouth with apple pie. I need to talk to her about marriage and my parents too. I reply. What is Clara doing? He asks. She married last year with Ayden, a diamond merchant. She now lives in Ukraine. I reply eating the last spoon of apple pie. That’s great!
Simon plays piano. Do you know how to play? I ask. Yes, Logan made me learn it though I like it but I always forget because of not practising regularly but still I can play a song for you and Logan can sing. I am not surprised to hear that Logan can sing. He is an artist, he can. Simon plays piano and Logan sings.
You are not so sure
But my love for you is pure
One day you will depart
Breaking my heart apart
You will become a stranger
Everything comes to an end
This thought makes me so suffocated
I know, this time
Love is
Love is
complicated
Love is complicated....
Love is complicated
The song is beautiful and the lyrics of song are also written by Logan himself. I get deeply touched by the words. I look at him, his eyes full of emotions. We look at each other. Simon kisses him on lips and seeing this I hold my fist tightly as I wanted to punch Simon badly. But then I change my expressions and take a sip of water to control my anger. They both leave and go to their room wishing me goodnight. I realized that this is my last night in their home. I hope that may be in future I will pick up a good excuse to visit Georgia again as soon as possible. But I don’t think this will heal my heart. I need something else.
I leave early morning to board the flight. Logan and Simon also wake up to give me a final goodbye. But Simon as usual has to go for a meeting and I feel on cloud nine because I will get alone time with Logan. Logan drives me to airport and in half an hour we reached. This time I wanted to travel by my own private jet as I was travelling alone but at the last minute, dad needed the jet for his travel. Finally, I had to take a public flight. ‘Evan! it was wonderful time that I spend with you’. Logan says looking into my eyes. Yes, it was, and I promise you that we will meet soon as still the construction is in progress. Oh yes, ‘I forgot that we met only because of work’ he taunts me. Logan, if you want, we can meet personally. What do you mean if I want? He angrily says. You also know what do you want Evan. You are confused but I am clear that I want Simon only and next month we will get engaged legally. Goodbye and take care! Logan about to leave when I hold his hand and he stops and looks into my eyes. Logan, I have bought a gift for you that will always remind you to be the way you are! And don’t ever change yourself whatever happens. I will miss you and I know that right now I don’t know what I want and after going back from here I will live my old life which will be difficult to live without you. Logan smiles and hugs me. We both hug each other for a while and then he asks me to go.
“I will miss you too’’ Evan! I heard these words from Logan. I turn around and he was still standing and waving his hand. I smile and goes inside the airport as my flight was going to take off in few minutes but my heart wants to stay with him forever and forever.
