Just like a moving Storm lefts traces of destruction behind, this incident left her in a state of grief and pain.
2 years before, when we added that prefix to our names - "HAPPILY MARRIED", we started our journey together for the rest of our life.
We both were exactly opposite to each other; as if I was a shy person who barely express, She was bold and Talkative. Before our marriage, she being straightforward asked me for a promise that she wants to conceive two babies as she was willing to be a future mother of two baby boys. I just nodded my head as a gesture of agreement and we had our first hug.
Happiness found out address soon and she became pregnant. Her Smile, Face expression along with tears rolling over her eyes - I still remember. When the doctor said, " Congrats! You're going to have twins. " Her Heart fullfilled with Joy and and the way looked at me with profound happiness as if she was thanking me for making her dream come true.
But as they say, Bad coexists with good at the same time, She went through miscarriage and our world was collapsed into that very moment which was filled with utmost pain.
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That very sad moment in our life was the epitome of all worsts and odds - one could ever imagine.
After that Miscarriage, she was broken from inside. Her dream got a checkmate from destiny. Seeing her depressed, crying all over was challenging for me. After all I was the 'man of the house'. I tried my best to hide my feelings deep inside somewhere my heart. I was only willing to calm her anyhow. I wanted my girl back.
But destiny never gives you what you want... Another wave of sorrow and pain emerged out of nowhere in our life.
After her checkup, the Doctor did call me personally and informed me about her reproductive health, which was at a higher risk. Planning again for a pregnancy to conceive a baby could be dangerous for her life.
- Silence -
" Mr. Hey? You Ok? "
As soon I gained my senses back; I did exit from there.
It was our wedding anniversary that night and I was driving throughout the road, in a state of pain, doubt, agony and confusion. I was trying to gain enough courage to face her. Every checkpoint at the road was reminding me of the pain I was going to give her.
A provoked thought that dominated my mind and heart was that I will anyhow convince her to drop her idea and to give up on her dream, to terminate the wish she always wanted.
I made up my mind - even if I'll have to break the promise that I did before marriage, I won't put her life to risk.
After all, she was the only one, I had in my life.
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There I was, with a bad news to ruin her beautiful night.
The moment I entered, the room totally covered with darknessand the table in center was eye-catching. She appeared from behind and gave me a hug, whispering in my ear, "Happy Anniversary Dear! 💕"
We both had our seats and with a heavy heart I noticed the table; decorated with rose petals, a chocolate cake, some candles, my favorite Gulab Jamuns and a fragrance of a nice perfume - all as I like. Unfortunately, none were luring me any more.
" Sorry dear! I being so selfish, neglected you. The grief and pain dominated me for a while, but I know that we're together. We can have our champs again, we'll try.... "
Her words slashed me like a blade and without uttering a word, I started weeping. I was weeping like a child, oppressed by situation. Tears started rolling over her cheeks too.
Anyhow I gathered courage and narrated her everything. She did take a pause. I hold her hand & went on my knees.
" I know what it meant to you, that has been lost. But I'm here, for you - with you. We can go for adop... "
Shhh...
She placed her finger on my lips.
" I want just another promise. You'll always love me and will never leave me. "
" Always dear! 💕 whatever be the circumstances, I'll be with you! " And I gave her a forehead kiss. All the grief was dispersed, sadness and regret vanished.
There maybe ways for us to have joy of parenthood, like adoption and surrogacy. But for now, all I knew was that this moment was ours.
She - me and nothing in between to distract.
It was the moment of our life,
That United both of us.
Forever and ever.
- Thank you for reading
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PRATHAM SHAH
