It almost half and year I leave my home, one of my friend tell me “what you do in your life it can be decide by your next 365 day after your college degree”
I never forget that words, but I don’t want to accept that .not because I have few example of high successful people who face their worst after their college life even some can’t even able to go college. May be because, I had some terrific memories in my heart, which I never, wanted to forget. Yeah it’s true everyone had bad time in their life and I had too, and I know one day I laugh on all the shits I had done or doing. Because, it is not important what where or how you survived, important is why you want to survive.
The day I never forget was changed my entire thoughts in my life
It almost sunset time and I tried because seating at bench near lake watching water and don’t realize what is going and lost in thoughts.
Group of four people in everyone have different personality, yeah I’m engineer (mechanical) so its obvious it is group of four boy. One is D2d (diploma to degree) fully dedicate prepared for government job and the good thing is, he is now loco-pilot in railway (Rajasthan). Second one is smart and intelligent had good score in gate and now work in psu with pretty good package. You know there always one guy who never talk much but know very well what to do or not but you never know that and assume may be he is smart but little lazy, he is the one who make more money than anyone else in my class may he is good well set in his own business.
The guy who don’t know what is the future one who live in moments and enjoying, obviously I’m in group that’s mean I’m also little smart or know little educational stuff. But in reality I just want to know the practical or know where I can use it, which makes me feel better.
In engineering you have four year, in the end of third year I get we live only once so I want to change everything and want to experience everything which I left in school or in college for doing great in study. I start hangout with people from different department, different school and college and I join group of curricular activity in my college where only two people from mechanical whom I know, Both are my senior one guy is good in acting stuff and another is beauty of college. Another reason to join is to know her, because I’m the one who become nervous in front of girl. And I know you never able to surpass your fear until you face it.
Good day are gone very soon and you can’t do anything except enjoy it. Because once the day gone it becomes memory making it good or bad it’s your choice. I know we can’t make every day is good day it’s not in our hand but things I know you have to live day either you want or not , each day every day people change continuously best is go with flow accept it and improved yourself and be better-one a good one.
With time I fall in love and having most beautiful feeling in the world. I imagine in mine mind about her and how we spend our life together like I’m used to think of terrorist attacked in my school time and I save entire school.
You know there is something beyond the feeling of proud, and I think it was feeling of being Hero.
You know why?
Because, Hero is the guy who never give up, who gives everything even put his life on line for the people. Even ready to sacrifice his own feeling or life for people and wonderful thing is, he is willing to sacrifice for them who don’t even know him. And that’s make him special.
Like me everyone has their own story and I think in her story I’m not the guy for whom she looking for. We are just friends. You know sometimes it hard to accept it. She knows very well my feeling and kindly try to make understand we are just friend. But that time I walk too long and impossible to go back so I decide to say lie “it’s okay, I can understand, we are just friend”. But things getting worst when you got competition and you not even allowed participating. She fall for someone else, and it’s good to not bother much more. Know everything about them, what they are doing and where they are but pretend to not care about that and move on. The day come very soon when we say good bye. I give her many time company while she gone at home by train. I don’t leave her until her uncle come to receive her at station than, I wait for next train and come back. But when it was last day when I can see or be with her. I see of her out off station not bother to go inside station even and I don’t know why?
I moved on with time and set in my life, earning good money to live life And fulfill need of me and my family. With time I realize that I wake up become ready and go to work for 8 to 8 comeback eat and sleep. Like infinite cycle which never end may be certain change but 99% is almost same. The entrustment in my life is almost fading away. I don’t know what I want to do and what is my purpose or goal in my life. I’m just earning money but I don’t get any satisfaction. As every die I’m sitting near lack and watching sunset and thinking about what I want to do in my life or where I want to go in my life,
After few minute
“What do you think?” Vikas sitting near me asked after complete his chips
He is the guy who almost know each and everything about me and same with me, we never hangout everyday may be few day in months or may be in two or three month.
If I honestly say we never give each other advise what to do next but after each meeting I or may be him to find something what to do next in life or in present situation we are facing now.
I don’t have any complain but what happen is I don’t know or may be don’t understand or I want to changed everything in my life or you can say im running in my life .
“Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?” asked him without making eye- contact and continuously see in reflection of sun in water. I never see such beautiful view in real. Unfortunately my phone is not able to catch in camera what I see by my eyes and feel by my heart so don’t want to take picture and want to stay as long as I can.
“That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,” replied with looking toward the sky
“I don’t much care where –“ I replied because I want to run but never thoughts where I want to go , I always try to come first and be best than everyone else that’s all I thought but never about where I really want to be.
”Then it doesn’t matter which way you go,” he replied
That was not answer I except in my mind but in reality, that is the answer which I really in need in my life. Sometime answer which you looking for is hide in another question you just need to look in that way. The honest answer or I can say true question which I get from him is
“What you really want? Or where you want to go?”
