Chapter : 9
Kaate chahe jitna, paro se hawaon ko
Khud se naa bach payega tu
Todh aasmano ko, fhook de jahaano ko
Khud ko chhupa naa payega tu
Koi bhi le raasta. Tu hai tu le hasta
Apne hi ghar aayega tu
It was around 2 in midnight but I am not sleeping today, I have planned not to sleep whole the night. I want to end this dream game. I am getting to know each problem of mine but the corrective measures are not there. I don’t want that dream to appear in me. I stood up and stood in front of mirror. I just keep looking my face.
“Clean shaved face suits you more” Inner me spoke.
“Shut up, I am not listening you today” I said while looking at beard.
“Don – Bad boy kind of look, girls like this, buy black goggles and then you will be just…” Inner me spoke again.
“You and I know that I am no bad boy, and you also know that I am not going to change for anyone” I spoke.
“You have to change someday…aisa behaviour tera kisi ko pasand nahi aayega, kuchh rocking kar” Inner me spoke.
“Kya rocking karu? Pagal banta firu me uske liye? Dil tod du apna?” I asked.
“Mera Dil to nahi tutna chahiye naa…hamare pass dil ke siva dusra kuchh khone ko hai hi nahi” Inner me spoke.
“Why you are sounding scared today?” I asked.
“Siddhidhaatri” Inner me answered.
“What?” I asked.
“Sounds like a miracle, being scared of mine. It is about being perfect, bringing perfection in life and it is when you start seeing out of the box, making impossible possible, going beyond the logical mind and seeing something much wider beyond time and space. Now it is the time of getting fruits of your efforts and actually it is not in your hand” Inner me spoke.
“What you are trying to convey?” I asked.
“You have tried, you have waited, so now just focus on being perfect. It is not valuable if it is easily available.” Inner me spoke.
“Should I keep thinking?” I asked.
“Do what you like, just perform your Karma and something will happen, you may call it miracle” Inner me answered.
“Are you sure?” I asked.
“I am sure that something will happen because time doesn’t wait for anyone, one day you will realise and you also keep moving with the things, you will accept what destiny has written for you” Inner me answered.
“You are like friend now, I can discuss anything with you” I spoke.
“I am no friend, I am not your mind, I am not your heart. I am just here to address some queries in you. There were nine queries which we solved day by day and if those were not solved then it might have created problem for you” Inner me asked.
“Problem like?” I asked.
“Raavan – you were becoming some different person, the Raavan in you was rising in those nine days but now we killed it by our discussion. You are ok now. You are aware of nine aspects and now you can fight them” Inner me spoke.
“What should I do now?” I asked. Inner me laughed.
“Just sing a song. Watch a movie. Go out and enjoy. Perform your karma, and keep singing”
Kaaga re Kaga mori itni araz tose chun chun khaiyo maans
Re jiya re khaio na tu naina more, khaiyon na tu naina more
Piya k Milan ki aash
