A wave of nervousness ran down my spine,it was a regular day but not a normal one.I had read about all the chaos caused by an unseen being in the distant land,the havoc that it was causing and the pain it was delivering but always thought that it would never reach me.Although whole country was entering a lockdown still it felt to be an untouched feeling of a known to be seized to the virus.My phone rang and it seemed like a regular ring but the message it gave was very unwelcomed.Radha Bai my household help whom I have known for years succumbed to the novel coronavirus.I was shocked and deeply struck.Being aware of all the aspects the disease , still could not digest the news of the death of my Radha Didi.She was not a family member but was my homemaker.From hot tea to comfortable bed she took care of everything.I never realised the importance of her presence but was deeply hit by her absence.Although i never forced her to come to work or take leave yet she was very caring enough in going home as soon as she had a sneezing night.I urged her to take to hospital but being worried about my health she refused the gesture.But I never thought the day I would get the news of me being tested negative I would also get the news of my Radha didi leaving my home and this world without even being getting tested.It was a black day to realise that the five miles which I drove for my favourite burger was the distance which she could not travel to save her life due to absence of a public bus or an ambulance.A person could die because she could not reach to a public health facility was a mock at all fundamental and human rights and it was also a mock at my education that being aware of all the consequences of that sick virus I let her go so that I could be safe.It was a mock at humanity.The woman that kept me alive when I was away from my family busy making my career ,I could not provide her care in order to save myself.."sheer selfishness"..Virus might have killed hundreds or may be thousands..but the real cause of death is disintegrating humanity..you may give it any name you like -lack of facilities,lack of infrastructure,lack of government initiatives,lack of ventilators and the like.The unseen virus changed me,my life,may be it will make us human but I fear it would take more lives to make us human.Fear yourself not God ..at the end you have to answer your own conscience more than anyone else and the the hardest part is that you cannot lie to your own conscience.The virus whatever the name is ..is a calamity for humanity not only for humans.When we even did not know what to eat, this humanity might have kept us alive and would have helped us to carry our generations forward...so fear the disintegration of humanity more than the NOVEL CORONAVIRUS..AND AS INDIAN GOVERNMENT CALLER TUNE SAYS"HUMEIN BIMARI SE LADNA HAI,BIMAR SE NAHI".
