act 2 chapter 7| careful relationship in pressureAfter our first kiss relationship between me and Anita changed suddenly. Before we were careless and independent but after we became careful and dedicated to each other. My mind couldn't understand that what was going on. But I was very sure that after our physical attachment everything changed. She was like my wife and I was like a husband. She fed me, she cared for me and she did everything for me. From the side of me, it was the same but one deference was between me and Anita. That is I was overconfident but she was confident. I thought if I will crack competition then board score will increase suddenly because my level will be high. But she always said me to be confident but not like this. But I rejected her theory my overconfidence was on top. Slowly time was going. We both were studying but in a deferent way. She was writing and also saying to me. I was reading and refusing to her. Board exam came we both gave papers. Then competition came we both gave papers with energy.
Now after it all finished we did lip lock in my hostel and spent quality time with her.
Results
Time of results came I cracked all the competition and got top colleges like SRM VIT NIT BITS DUBAI CAMPUS. but my board score was 70% which was too low as my confidence. My girl cracked NEET SAT US and scored 84% and got admission in California university. And there a boy told everything about my and Anita's relationship. They all scolded me and gave a lot of abuses to Anita for low score In the board of mine. I also fought for Anita but my mom scolded me more and gave me the order to come back home as soon as. I was weeping too much because I was going to lose my girl. I called Anita but I couldn't say anything just called her to bus. She came fast after listening to the voice of my tears. We did the last face to face talking.
Anita I am going to the village permanently I can't meet you after this.
Shivam! What are you saying?? Say no Shivam that you are joking...
Anita!! It's true... We will contact with call and if god will with us I will meet you...
Shivam!! I will miss you forever. I want that you come to me daily but also I know conditions. We will marry after 6 years.
Yes sure ma'am and I promise. And can I kiss you...
I want Shivam but public... So no.
We are Brock by conditions. And also by pressure but will meet soon Anita.
This was last we both cried. But an act was finished
act-3 @ BARMER chapter-1 late results and our insultI came back to my hometown in Barmer district of Rajasthan. My mom and dad gotta too angry with me. They were thinking that my board result was down because of Anita. But it was not true because I was the reason for my unsuccessful performance. I was also saying them that I will get admission in any top engineering college but my parents refused me for any more because they were said to admit me in a BSC college by a town's intelligent (actually duffer in my conditions). So that's why my NIT, my BITS, my SRM, and my Vit all seats and results were in vain. Whenever my life Anita called me my mom started to abuse her and she wept and said me to not fight with my parents.
Whenever I was thinking something my mom started scolding me that don't think about that bitch and many more words. I was dying internally and I was weeping also. Slowly slowly I took less interest in my college and my girl was encouraging my power and giving me stability. She was giving me kisses daily on the phone so that I could feel good. She was saying me Nanu baby so that it could make me smile. And I was going to be stronger for us and also the future of the family. But it was in front of me that every family members hates me. I was feeling angry and couldn't manage to stop tears. Slowly but steadily I started to concentrate on my study. I made my first friend he was Sammy. Sammy and I were always together and he was too good. This news made her happy and she sad to me make more friends so that I couldn't feel alone. So I did so my Jaan was also happy.
act 3 chapter 2 started to love fun and roaming
This was Barmer city, a city where fun-loving guys are common. But there are two types of these guys first who do it in limit and others who do it by crossing limit. And I was the part of the first type. I loved fun but not by crossing limit. We are six boys in our group me, Animesh, Harshit, Jaipal, Amit, and Rohit. We six were too naughty that not only our class but our teachers were our target. Rest four were open but I and Rohit were close. We were the black ace of our class. On day miss Chandrakanta was teaching us in an empty period because our subject teacher was on holiday. because she teacher of BCA so she was asking questions related to computer. Then
Miss," tell me what is full form of MIPS?"
Harshit," miss!! May I?"
Miss," yes! Yes! Harsh it."
Harshit," may I play soccer."
( class laughed loudly and Miss became serious)
Then she rotated questions to whole class and Harshit and I were seeing a pic of the last party. But Miss saw us.
She took his phone and gave it to HOD.
HOD," why you two are doing a lot of fun?? Boys are serious. Now I am giving you phone but no more."
Harshit," sir she asked me full form of HOD so I was finding on Google. Sir be digital."
HOD," hahahaah(laughs). No one can beat you all. Go and this is your phone."
This scene I described to Anita and she said me only one thing that is DON'T DO THIS AGAIN MY JAAN YOU SHOULD FOLLOW RULES AND YES GOOD THING YOU DID...
This was one side of our relationship. We can stop each other on wrong things and can pet back on good things...
I was praying for her and yes I will...
act 3 chapter 3||addition and multiplication of problem in life
I and Anita were living our life happily. I always share my all problems with her and she sometimes supported me and sometimes scolded me. These things were depended on whether is it my fault or not??
Slowly our love was being deep and deep. But as deepness increased, our problems became greater and greater.
5 Sept. 2014
It was the morning of Sept. 5. It is well known by the teachers day in India on the birthday of the second president of India Dr. S. Radhakrishnan. I was going to college to attend the function. Suddenly my cell ringed... Oh, this was Anita.....
Anita Shivam I want to say you something....... Are you free??
( her voice was clear that she is weeping)
Me yes say my love what??? And why are you weeping?? I know something it must be serious... Is it related to our life??
Anita, you got it, right sweetheart. I know you can get my problems easily without I say something and today is a too serious problem. Our life may be destroyed if we will late...
Me-hey love!!! Say it clearly I am getting tensioned...
Anita Shivam!! My parents are saying that they will do my engagement with another guy and will send me to the USA but I just want you so I have a way to be yours and if they send me to the USA then no one can take a place in my life instead of you...
Me so what do you want???
( my intention was clear)
Anita, you got it right let's go we will do marriage and engagement and a kiss...
Me OK we will but how that boy will be left you by this??
Anita, we will kiss each other in front of him... And he will break his intention and will say to my father and he will send me to my and your dream...
Me-wow love!!! OK then will meet you tomorrow in jodhpur and come with that tortoise...
Anita but your mother???
Me I will handle... OK, bye Jaan take your care...
Anita bye love...
I fixed the plan but it was hard to take permission from my mom. If I ask her a question then she must give me a question paper... But I have decided and I was determined to my decision so I after attending a function I went home quickly and made my way directly towards my mom... And took some breaths for it.....
Me Actually mom I want permission from you...
Mom For what?? Did that bitch said to do a new drama??
Me mom please this time Anita did nothing and permission for go to Jodhpur with a friend to purchase a book...
Mom yes you can... If that Witch is not there...
Me OK mom thank you...
My mom gave me permission and I and Anita departed from our cities... We met in Jodhpur in a hotel... She came to my room by giving that tortoise a clue... When she came into my room I and she did ring ceremony and peoples who attended this ceremony were me and Anita (of course) and that tortoise. By seeing this ceremony his mouth became red. And on his red face, we added yellow color by kissing each other on lips. By seeing this scene he went back to Jaipur alone and described this to Anita's father.
When Anita went back to her home, her head has a red line. So it was clear that she was my wife. And he wanted to kill me but neither he had my pic nor he knows my address and of course my Jaan did not say anything. Her father bet her badly and confirmed that he will send my Jaan to the USA.
She was feeling pain by the beating of her father but quite happy by this and when she told me about this then I felt angry from her father but was happy from this...
But oh my luck she was going and I was not there... She called me but my mom was there so I did just a message...
You are going too far
I will do here a good war
I will miss you a lot of love
I want to kiss you, my love,
I will wait for your call
I want to take you too far
Come back with the suffix of Dr
Our family will with us hope so
Come and come as fast
Time may run so fast
Can't attend your phone
Mom is near you can get.....
She smiled and texted her smile to me.....
act-4@barmer usa communication || ch1 wait and waitIt was the morning of 14 Feb. This day is well known as valentine day in the world. This day was like a festival for us. On this grand occasion of valentine day 2015, I was feeling alone. It was ending of Anita in the USA. But since I was waiting for her call I was sad without her but never expressed. Slowly my wait became so eager but her wait became too hard. But one day my goddess gave me fruit of my wait. She called me after a long time.
We talked with each other like this...
Anita, am I talking with my cute sweet baby?
I and it must be my future NRI love...
(Laughed she)
Me where were you, my love? I was missing you too much. No call no message. If it will be late then sure I will die.
Anita hey shut up don't say again this word "die". My love actually my brother was with me to set me in the USA so I was unable to call you. You know no how is my brother's nature? And my love my life I missed you so much. Every second without you was like life.
Me-hey love! Do you know I was waiting for you? By the way, when will you come to India?
Anita month of June. By the way, this is Jan 2015 so what is your planning for this year?
Me nothing till June and after you will come, I will meet you and also I have to fight exams this year. And love completes your MS soon. I am waiting for you. OK now bye mom is calling me. Take your care. Bye...
Anita sure Jaan you will see Dr. Anita soon. But a question why you prefer Dr in the suffix, not in prefix?
Me because I want doctors like a religion not as divided into many casts.
Anita salute to your thinking love. Proud to be your love.
Me Me too. Ohk bye...
Anita bye... and kiss to you...
Call ends.....
And finally, this call ended my wait of her call. Then after this, I talked with her continues one time in a week...
act 4||ch~2 oh no i did mistake
I was very happy because Anita was calling me every Sunday. She was treating me like I am his loving husband and I was treating her like a goddess. It was very true that she was a goddess because she was different from other girls. Where GF of my every friend demands various things from them. Weekly recharge and many more things but my sweetheart scold me if I say her about to spend money in vain for her. She used to give me a lecture(you can say good points) on the importance of money. Where her classmates were leaving there boys for the successful boy but my girl was in the USA but she had the same quantity of love for me. Even she encouraged me to do better. She was everything for me that's why I love her very much.
As every Sunday I was talking to her, we talked with each other for 1 hour because she was girls so she found me the perfect person to share everything. So here her call was on and there my mom was calling to me but I was unable to hear my mom's voice so after completing my call I went to mom. That time she did not say anything so I left phone after clearing call history near my mother and went outside to a friend. As I entered in home mom started call recording on my phone.
My mom had listened to the whole conversation of my and Anita. But I was thinking that HOW IS IT POSSIBLE THAT CALL CAN BE AUTO RECORD WITHOUT SWITCH THIS OPTION ON. but now this was a time to listen and drink many drops?! of poison from my mom.
Mom said many words to Anita. She said her and me as bad as it was possible I just wept. She was forcing me to stop to talk with Anita but I couldn't say yes. Soon her anger changed in hyper position so she slapped me and went away. That day I was thinking that how she got to know all about call recording and how call recording system can be on after I switched it off? But soon my sister told me all about her doing. She turned on auto call record after I left home and before the call of Anita. And that's why it was recorded. But that time at my house I can't speak for me. I was a criminal. Criminal of love. A criminal whose childhood passed with only and only scolding and beating for no reason. I was a criminal who was hungry for love. But love from the family was 0 so a person who gave me love was a goddess for me but my family was against her. But at that time I could not do anything... yes nothing.... instead..... weeping.....
act~4|| ch~3 Anita- Shivam meetingI was a boy who had 0% family support. I just started my own startup of my life. Didn't know that what was right or wrong. If I did something then that was only for my girl. If I refused so that was for my girl. Slowly relationship of my with Anita became too strong. Strong like stone or better to say strong like a mountain. But it was also very true that no one cared about this. Ya, that was also right that both families were against this relationship. They became very strict when days of valentine came near. But we were the student of science, a physicist and other was Future doctor.
Slowly time passed I gave my first and second-year exam and got the positive result. She cleared her 2 years successfully in the USA. She and I were of course happy in bad conditions because we knew that the time of our meeting is near. After one month I was going to meet my fairy, my doll, and my love. And for this, I left my third year's teacher day function. I was just counting days but these days were passing like a century. "Slowly slowly..... Oh no!!..... Please fast... The time you can't give me wait like this... Maybe watch is running slowly... Maybe it has been stopped." Feelings like this were coming from my heart.
Day of meeting
@ jodhpur
Finally, the day of the meeting had come. I was all excited about meeting... I had many things to share with Anita. We both reached @ cafe coffee day, most known as CCD... Then we started talking...... But before talking I hugged her tightly and gave her a kiss... She blushed and we both took the table and ordered our favorite cold coffee and some other drinks... So meeting was
Anita so Shivam may I ask you a question? Do you remember how to kiss?
Me actually Anita if you are my love so how can I forget how to kiss you... I love you and will love you forever...
( she blushed again)
Anita ohh my sweetie pie I love you too... I was missing a kiss from you... This was the first kiss after our hidden marriage. Yes, that was a condition that gave us only this way.
Me yes my Jaan... How can I let you alone... Your family was marrying you 10 year older man.. And you just wanted me and I wanted you.
Anita Shivam!! I am in tension about our future. And my family is giving pressure on me... They giving me too much... No words to explain I just want to die... I think it's a better option to finish this game of life... People say that love give sadness but I think my family is giving me... I lost my willpower... I just want you...
(She wept)
I hugged her tightly and I gave her laughter dose... But I was also in fear because I know that she was under pressure and she could do anything wrong...
She went back to the USA. And I started regular talking to her...
act~5 || wrost phase of my life- she dead, i became alone
Time was passing Anita's madness and her family's pressure increased exponent. Slowly but yes her Behaviour changed like she was gonna die. But I was in a lot of tension. In this condition, I trusted to my sis who is studying in the same class at my college. I shared everything with her. She gave me suggestions to stay happy and give her happiness... She used to be sad in my tension that's why she was one of the most believable people of my life.
In every call, I tried to make Anita happy. She just smiles but she was sad by heart and my heart only can read her heart that's why I was being sad by heart but didn't express...
1 Nov 2016
This was the evening of 1 Nov I was waiting for the call of Anita. My phone rang and it was my love oh better to say my life...
Anita Shivam my love I love you... You are the best person in my life. You always make me happy... You hated my tears... But sometimes I think that in love story without the death of girl story seems boring
I Are you gonna mad or what... You are my love and you should stay alive... In love stories, both should be alive... And do you know what I can't see tears in the eyes of three persons one is you and other is my sis which studies in my class and my sis of Surat .. Do you know what I always say to you all don't weep.? But you all.... And listen, Anita, when I told to my sis about you in the break between our class and in chat then she became sad with our conditions but she said me in the break that I should make you happy... So I am always with you...
Anita, I know this but my brother gave me choice that either you or I should be alive not both... But I am giving you swear to stay alive to complete my dreams...
Me And Anita I am giving you swear to stay alive... Just for me... Only for me... For our future children...
Anita, I will try Shivam... Bye...
Me bye...
After talking with Anita I called her best friend Joe... She told me everything that how her brother giving her pressure to stay away from me and how she refused... And how he said to her that he will kill me where ever I go to next to give exam...
At last, Joe said to me that she loves me so much... So that's why she was thinking to die for me to show the world how our relationship was strong.
Joe cut the phone but I was in tension I started to hide my pain from everyone... I left study by this pain but tried to make me busy by working for the farewell of my physics lecturer. But function ended on 8 Nov I performed a poem but was quite unhappy in my heart.
After a long discussion, I went to give lab assistant paper in Ajmer with my father.
13 Nov 2016
It was the time of my exam it was 10:45 am after 15 min I have to go for the paper of 12 pm.
At that time the phone rang... It was Anita's brother... He informed me about the death of Anita... He said to me that she died on 7 Nov and now her dead body will arrive at Jaipur... Come soon... Finally, he added a line that was enough to understand the reason of her death that was maybe your exam is finished... Oh sorry, I disturbed you now your paper will be destroyed... By the way, come to Jaipur to see your wife's face last time... Finally last time...
After cutting his phone I called my friend who lives near Ajmer to come right at 3 pm and I suggest to my father to go to his friend's house... I was in a condition in which I hide my tears and my sadness became madness... Without any preparation, I cleared paper in halftime and scored high in that exam... By the last bell, I ran to my friend's car and we both went to her house... In that place, I wept badly but no one stopped me... Her brother was showing to me his fake sentiments... After all this, I had decided one thing that on 7 Feb I will cut my beard on completing her death's 3 months to tribute her... And on 13 Feb I will cut my hair on the 3 months completing day before her funeral.
Today 07 Feb 2017
So this is time to introduce you Shivam it's me your friend... I am quite alone... I am quite by heart... I always speak more to hide my grief. Now today is the right time to finish this story... But the truth is she is still alive in my heart... I wrote this story to tribute her and show the world that yes our love was pure but time was not with us. Everyone said to me to forget her but i refused... No girl can take place of her in this heart..... Every teen nowadays does mistakes... Yes, I loved a girl but the mistake was not that mistake was I did her head red because that time I even couldn't think that what it means... The mistake was I was thinking that my mom is against me but no I was wrong my mom is with me... I love first mom and then her..... But this story of the teen.
a teen love ended
I miss you a lot my love... And please readers share my story with everyone... And yes love a lot to your beloved...
The body can die but love can't.....
