…Last Wish...
Rajni Patel’s
Dedicated to
Someone whom I never get
Disclaimer
ALL CHARECTERS AND EVENT DEPICTED IN THIS STORY IS FICTITIOUS.
ANY SIMILARITY ANY PERSON LIVING OR DEAD IS MEARLY COINCIDENCE.
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“Love in my Heart...Tears in my eyes...
She is bird of Sky, want to touch Beyond the Sky...
I just a dust of Ground, Seeing where She Fly...”
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“I don’t have any feeling for you now. Please try to understand you must move on. I just hate you..”
I just break deep inside my heart when I listen this word first time from “Era”.
Era: “Raj don’t force me to block you and please let me live my life my own way. I am not kid, I am mature than you and know what is right and wrong for me. And loving you is my biggest mistake in my life.”
seriously loving me is always a mistake.
Era: “And now after you done this you lost my respect too. I don’t have any respect or love or any feeling for you. Go to hell. I really hate you.”
Raj : “Sharing my feeling and my thought with your friend is the biggest crime I commit? you are ignoring me since last one or two weeks and avoid talk to me in anyhow. where i go and share that what deep inside me is breaking by this kind of behaviour.”
Era: “OK. Then leave me if you don’t like. If I am too bad and my character is like prostitute, then why don’t you leave me?”
Raj : “please I never questioned on your character. If I thought you are bad girl then I left you already before 4 years ago.”
Era : “I don’t want to listen anything . you just go to hell and let me live my life my own way.”
Raj : “OK No problem now I will never disturb you and never message you or try to call you.”
tears roll down from my eyes and my breath try to pump my heart enough fast to hold on myself with this last talks with Era. I never imagine in my worst dream that my lovely and long relationship of 5-year end like this.
I just want to say so many things to her...
I just want to share so many feeling with her...
I just want to make her smile again and again...
I just want keep her safe and happy...
I just...want to say it not my or her mistake ...But
i know all of this has no meaning now. My love, My care, My talks, My words now has no matters to her as she want to live free from me. I also now must let her go. Be with her is just a broken dream for me.
Era : “Many time you said this but you never keep on this. this time i never come back again in your life as I did last year. I don’t want be weak again and i don’t want to be in your life again.”
Raj : “OK. I promise I never again try to be with you anyhow. But...”
Era : “But ..? what..??”
Raj : “can we meet one last time..?”
Era : “Sorry I don’t want to meet.”
Raj : “But since One last year you keep telling me that we will meet and every time you have some excuses for not meeting me.”
Era : “whatever you want to think u will. But now I don’t want to meet, and I also don’t have time for this.”
“it’s My LastWish to see you and meet you....”
Era : “please.. I said No...”
I just took long breath to overcome my fast heartbeats and wipe out my eyes but again tears roll down.
“can I see you ? last wish.”
she just did a video call on Whatsapp to let my wish fill.
I just picked up the call after wiping my eyes and make myself enough strong comfortable to talk and see her last time.
Inside a blanket, wearing a white nightdress T-shirt, with heavy eyes after crying a lot with a face of no feeling and not even a smile on her lips. I always tends to make smile on those lips but may be I am the reason now of that crying eyes also. After few second seeing her i just say...
Raj : “Sorry. and please smile.”
Era : “I don’t deserve smile or any happiness when you are with me”
Raj : “please don’t say this much hard words its hurting and this is last time I am talking with you. Please live happily and let me go with smile.”
She just smile with fake feeling. But it’s enough for me to live without her as I want her to make happy in any way with her or without her.
i try my all possible way to make her smile and her life better when we are together but now time change letting her go is her wish and I keep her wish fulfil to see a beautiful smile on her face without me. but she never understands “the feeling of love is never gone.it remain inside my bones .in my veins, in my every breath, in my morning and night, in my words and my poetry, in my every thought of reason to live. She never understands this but making her happy is the love for me.”
I just disconnect the call and hide my face beneath my pillow to cry and thrust out my voice. I just broken deeply inside.it pain full to let her go alone in this world without me but it more painful I never imagine myself without her.
Raj : “Thank You for fulfil my LASTWISH to see you. Thank you and sorry for all what I did and I always love you no matter what. Please take care and live happy. be wild be happy be careful”
Era: “you to be happy and please don’t cry and always be successful in your life.”
Raj : “yes I will be...now bye.”
Era : “Bye..”
she has her dream her life her own thought about everything.
“Love in my Heart...Tears in my eyes...
She is bird of Sky, want to touch Beyond the Sky...
I just a dust of Ground, Seeing where She Fly...”
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