Nithya Near, You've every right to know why I crave for you more than ever before. And I owe you an explanation for wanting you in spite of your indifference. My darling, you're the triumph as well as the tragedy of my life. You know about the joys you have had bestowed upon me, but you're not aware of the deprivations I have brought upon myself. I never wanted to lose you, but neither would I blame you for having left me. It was life itself that played the spoilsport. How it failed us both to misread our priorities! I